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This 1 week plus have been full of ups and downs. It’s a toll on the mental health for taking such long emotional roller coaster ride. I was hunt down by nightmare last night. Woke up with tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably again. I cannot imagine if I was to spend that 3 days in NUH all by myself.
These few days at home make me going into deep thoughts. I cant make any decision now as we still have 1 more specialist appt on this coming Wednesday.
I have to seriously re-consider abt my career. I dont hold tt kind of salary to hold such responsibilities. Ever since the last hoo ha, I have nvr been on leave or MC w/o any phone call from office. Almost every phone call is urgent, every issues that happen during my absence need immediate attention and its my attention…………
I were breaking down at TMC after my scan and yet I have to pack my feelings to answer phone calls after phone calls. HB ask me how on earth are you going on Maternity Leave like this?
I no longer able to take on so much stress, I have a life to live normally, I aint no Superwoman, if earning lesser make me happier than it’s a clear choice.
Hopefully when I rtn to office tml, I dont see a big mess waiting for me. Losing my cool and breaking down during my pregnancy is the last thing I ever want to do.
终于一切都过去了, 这几年的是与非就让他随风而去. 前面的路还很长, 我们会陪你一起走. 往后的日子一定要更开心, 活得更充实.
我无法帮你预言委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍朋友爱得那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错至少要喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走吹吹冷风会清醒得多
你说你不怕分手只有点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了剩自己一个
其实爱对了人情人节每天都过
分手快乐祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活得有笑容
分手快乐祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了
US woman charged with murder for denying diabetic child medical care
May 19, 2009
PRAYER, not medicine, would heal their sick daughter.
Even when she had slipped into a coma, their faith did not waver, and they continued praying over her.
But what she needed wasn’t just prayers, but medical attention.
Her parents did not give her that.
And now, they stand trial for her death which prosecutors said was unnecessary.
In March last year, Madeline Neumann, 11, died from undiagnosed diabetes.
The Associated Press reported that her mother, Leilani Neumann, 41, had said her family believes in the Bible, which says healing comes from God, and she never expected her daughter to die.
She has been charged with second-degree reckless homicide in her daughter’s death.
The charge carries a maximum penalty of 25 years in prison.
According to the criminal complaint, Madeline’s father considered the girl’s illness ‘a test of faith’ and her mother never considered taking the girl to the doctor because she thought her daughter was under a ’spiritual attack’.
The family does not belong to an organised religion or faith. They have three other children.
During opening statements, assistant district attorney LaMont Jacobson told the jury this case wasn’t about religious freedom or religious rights.
He said: ‘This case is about Madeline Neumann’s needless suffering and death.’
Mr Jacobson recounted a chronology of events leading up to Madeline’s death.
She was called Kara by her parents.
He said: ‘Kara was left to lay on a couch overnight in a coma and nothing was done.’
Mr Jacobson described how Madeline was lying on the floor, neither talking nor eating.
By nightfall on the eve of her death, Madeline was ‘completely helpless’ and her mother commented to a friend, ’she sensed the spirit or Angel of Death present at her home’, Mr Jacobson said.
An autopsy showed that Madeline died from diabetes that left her with too little insulin in her body. Insulin regulates the sugar level in the blood.
She likely had some symptoms of the disease for several weeks and months, court records said.
The girl was finally taken to a hospital after other family members, including one in California, called 911 to seek emergency help, but it was too late.
The parents told investigators Madeline had not been to a doctor since she was 3.
Breakdown
Neumann’s case is believed to be the first of its kind in Wisconsin involving faith healing in which someone died and another person was charged with a homicide.
She apparently suffered a breakdown as the events leading to her daughter’s death were described in court on Saturday.
About 20 minutes into the prosecution’s opening statement, she put her head in her arms on the table.
While she was being examined by paramedics, her lawyer, Mr Gene Linehan, told the judge that she was suffering a total physical and emotional breakdown.
About 30 minutes later, she was brought back to the courtroom in a wheelchair. Her lawyer said she was going to be okay.
The judge was expected to question her to see whether she’d be fit to continue.
Mr Linehan has said his client is expected to testify in her own defence.
Her husband, Dale Neumann, is also charged with second-degree reckless homicide.
Source: http://tnp.sg/news/story/0,4136,2024…70340,00.html?
–Quote a msg from a member:
They are steeped too deep in their dogma that they failed to realize that the kingdom of heaven lies not here, but only in their faith. This world is real and is not the same kingdom they have fervently wished for.
Wake up people.– (This is something I cant agree more with)
–Quote a msg from a member below:
Even the Church acknowledges the study of medicine to certain extents
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God only help those who help themselves. Once my friend told me this thing abt cheap grace and I kind of believe tt lotsa pple abuse it. I have seen so many shallow faith believer, God dont forgive those who chose to abandon themselves and indulge in making mistakes in their life.
Tell me how many pple lives by good principal and good moral values of life.
It is good to have encouraging faith tt teaches you to be morally upright. Everything is good when you dont over do it. I found this piece of news on forum and thought this really a good piece of wake news for everyone. If praying works, we dont need doctors.
Suddenly this topic become very hot in Sg now. Im a cleanliness freak not since young. Its since when I were a part time dental nurse during my poly sch years. I wash my hand every now and then in the clinic despite wearing glove. I make sure I tk a hot bath after I finish work. I wear mask 99% of the time when Im in the clinic. During operation I will request for surgery gown.
Since then I inherited, the “keep myself very clean” habit. According to a recent research/survey show that some Singaporeans dont wash their hands after using the toilet. There was alot of debate going on recently with regards to this topic. Anyway not washing hands after using the toilet is very disgusting.
Im also very particular abt toilet cleanliness. I rather hold my pee for hours then to ease myself at toilet which are dirty. There are just these question in my mind that I simply dont understand. Why does Men do not have habit of flushing toilet? I have one in the office which dont flush toilet after use, luckily the one at home does it.
I heard this sentence from a friend of mine when he was telling me his DAD stick a note with this sentence written after not seeing him for weeks.
I merely laugh it off when he told me abt it. I guess his DAD was probably mad tt he didnt see his own flesh and blood for WEEKS.
This sentence suddenly pop in my mind minutes ago. I have to agree with my friend’s DAD on this sentence. Attitude control one thinking, actions and words. Or should I say everything! Just like if u think you will be forgiven with every single mistake u make, u will only continue to make more mistakes in life.
Last time my world only spin ard me. I thought I was the coolest person on earth and I do not need anyone in this world. I were so blind tt I didnt realise classmates walk past me. Tt becos I used to be a very self centred person. I can criticiseanyone I deem fit. In poly, I were one of the coolest girl in class. I alway ask what would get in rtn before I give.
There was once a classmate saw me on the MRT but she didnt dare to come close and say HI. During our break time, she found me talking to my besties jokingly then she came to tell me abt the incident. Oh well, she says I look as if I would kill if anyone come close. I didnt know my action would cause someone in such threatening moment. I feel bad, as she is a bubbly person, alway hoping here and there. To make such a person feel so threaten, my face must have really been black.
Many years after this situation, many things happen. Many pple behaviour make me another person. My hkg friend once told me that my smile is very beautiful. I realise tt if a happy person tend to have a happy “emotion” hanging on the face. I realise alot of pple pay attention to my behaviour and etc. No one deserve my black face, no one deserve my critics, no deserve to get flare at just becos I wasnt very happy tt day or maybe I thought I was cool at it. I learn to be self responsible abt my own emotion and action.
My mom once told me tt 你有时候说话真的很过分. Yes I admit this mistake of mine. I pass critics like as if I were the only right person on earth. I realise I were wrong to judge, a pot shouldnt be calling a kettle black. I learn to reserve myself, a coin alway have 2 side. How sure am I tt I knew the whole story.
Anyway its always better to realise my mistake and become a better person than to continue rotting.
A successful person has more to give than to have.
Confucius say, What you dont wish upon yourself extend not to others.
I refer to the column I read on 16/04/2009 ‘my paper’, Give me a plain Jane any day – ON THE S FACTORS GORGEOUS GIRLS.
Writer, Mr Chong Chee Kin, wrote a fantastic column on the recent TV show, S Factor. When I first saw the advertisement the first thing tt come to my mind is that how lowly these girls are. The writer share my sentiments on this show. I would say most of the guys would love this show and disagree with me, or probably say Im a sour grape. Oh well I’ll nvr be jealous abt woman w/o brains and ”selling” their body for $$$. To me woman w/o brains are call bimbos.
I agree that such show are soft porn and are an great insult to woman. 我猜我猜我猜我猜猜猜 featured pretty girls on show but are so much well done compared to our lowly S Factors and Singapore grid girls. I guess Singapore TV show still have a long way to go.
I admire man like Mr Chong Chee Kin, who aint some plain shallow man who goes after woman body and look. A woman with brains and inner beauty are so much better well off than bimbos. 如过我还没嫁肯定嫁给你. Man like this are endangered species on earth.
Dear God, pls send more of such great man to earth and get rid of those shallow ones.
This email was send to me by my client. The email content seriously hit me very hard. The topic itself have been running in my head for these few days.
別對親密的人潑冷水~~
愛情慢性致死之一的大兇手，就是潑冷水。(友情也是)
越熟的人越容易彼此潑冷水。
人們自然而然用來對付潑冷水的方式有兩種，
一是反潑冷水回去，
二是保持沈默，警惕自己，不再將自己快樂或得意的事告知這個人。
兩種都使雙方疏離。
有一位建築公司的高級主管對我說，他最不能忍耐的，就是他的太太有意無意的潑他冷水。當他打電話給太太說，今晚不能回家吃飯，因為公司同仁決定一起為他慶祝四十歲生日時，他這位曾是他大學同班同學的妻子馬上嗤之以鼻的說：「喔，你何德何能，為什麼人家要幫你慶生？」一句話使他滿腔熱情結成冰，心想：「早知妳這麼刻薄，下次不回家吃飯，我就不告訴妳。」其實，他的太太說的話並不表示瞧不起他，只是單純的不太會說話。
被人指責「不會說話」的人，通常很少認為那是自己的短處， 反而會沾沾自喜的認為自己很「直」，
暗暗以為是優點，如此一來，改進的可能性就很低。
我曾在百貨公司逛街時看到一對中年夫妻，太太剛從特價櫃上挑起一件衣服，先生馬上火眼金睛的大聲斥責：「醜死了，放回去！」太太一驚，馬上縮手，尷尬的眼神看著和她拿起同樣衣服的人，然後低頭遁去。我們一邊以同情的眼光看著這位太太，一邊為自己的審美品味被殃及而心有不甘。
肆無忌憚公開批評一個人穿著用品，構成的傷害和當面斥責他是白癡並沒有兩樣。親子關係亦然。
一位朋友說起她和母親的關係自小就疏遠，與小孩長大之後頂多能相敬如「冰」的原因, 就是她母親潑冷水的專長。她自小成績優秀，考第二名時，母親先問的第一句話竟是：「第一名多妳幾分？]得到第一名時後，她原以為會得到讚賞，母親卻說：「成績好沒什麼了不起，女孩子品德最重要。」
母親生日時她將零用錢買了她覺得很漂亮的生日禮物，母親卻覺得浪費錢要她拿回去換，他嘟著嘴抗議「好心給雷擊」，母親卻說：「沒揍妳已經很好。」甚至當她長大成人後和母親一起買衣服，站在試穿鏡前，母親也在她背後「讚賞」她「沒想到妳全身上下，就這雙小腿長得還可以。」
挑剔鬼、潑冷水、沒建設性的話可不能辯稱是「忠言逆耳」，說者不見得開心，聽者更是大大的傷心。
人非鋼鐵，愛一個人能承受幾次傷心？
張愛玲曾說：愛的相反不是恨，而是冷漠…
有空看信的好處是可以『增廣見聞』
穫取你平凡的生活不會去想的東西
沒空 看信也是一種幸福、它代表你有比看信更重要的事忙著
Today I went to Tanjong Pagar Hawker Centre for lunch, as I were queuing up to purchase my lunch, I saw a mid 40s lady sitting by the seat beside the queue. What caught my attention of me was that she was busy talking away while clipping her messy hair. I ponder for a moment. Being in my early 20s, I asked myself will I be like that lady. Figure out of shape, not bothered to dress up, goes to work with messy hair. My guess for that lady was, she probably gave birth and lost her slim figure. Maybe all the hardship that she went thru to raise her children makes her forget abt herself. Maybe she was once a dead gorgeous lady.
Suddenly, I have a lot of question to myself. Why cant we age w/o growing old? Why cant we give birth w/o growing fat? Why cant we always stay pretty? 人家说青春是女人的本钱, 没了青春的女人就没有本钱吗? 老天很不公平, 男人四十是条龙, 女人四十却…… 不过我要承认成熟的男人是很有魅力的.
我很享受现在的我, 时间可不可以停留?
Many pple say religion is a very sensitive topic, well at least to me it isnt. To me every religion is the same so long the religion teaches you to be good and morally upright. Pls don’t come debating with me that my god is different with your god, only my god exist and there is only 1 god. I call that HOLY CRAP!!!
This is neither the first time nor second time that this religion’s follower comes knocking on my door or tell me personally on how great their god is. Ya your god is great so is other pple’s god. Basically every god is great if not they will not be call GOD by their followers. Pls if other religion’s follower didn’t say that your god is stupid then stop calling other religion’s god a stupid statue. If other religion’s follower can respect your religion, why must you go ard calling other religion’s god is stupid statue. So if others religion’s god is a stupid statue what yours? Another stupid statue isnt it? 有嘴巴说人就要有嘴巴说自己.
If your religion don’t teach you to respect every other religion, that it failed to be a religion. Becos the simplest basic manners, RESPECT, is not practise in a religion then there is something very wrong with the religion.
Im trying my very best not to be crude here and esp to those 2 ladies who came. The next time anyone coming to me or my house to start talking abt religion, Im going to let me dog out and bite anyone. Oh yes Im serious. Since your god is very formidable and forgiving. Your god will heal your wounds bitten by my dog and forgive me for letting out the dog to bite.
My last piece of thoughts for religion, 宗教信仰, 信就好不要迷信.
Finally 2008 is over. Basically 2008 had been a very dissapointing year to me. Too many things happen….. Maybe this how pple grow…… Thru mistakes we learn to become a better person. Its the saddest thing that one dont learn from mistakes and continue repeating them.
All the happening in 2008 also kind of make me a different person. I some how now have a different sets of thinking towards life and pple.
Let hope I’ll have a peaceful 2009 ahead.
