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This 1 week plus have been full of ups and downs. It’s a toll on the mental health for taking such long emotional roller coaster ride. I was hunt down by nightmare last night. Woke up with tears rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably again. I cannot imagine if I was to spend that 3 days in NUH all by myself.
These few days at home make me going into deep thoughts. I cant make any decision now as we still have 1 more specialist appt on this coming Wednesday.
I have to seriously re-consider abt my career. I dont hold tt kind of salary to hold such responsibilities. Ever since the last hoo ha, I have nvr been on leave or MC w/o any phone call from office. Almost every phone call is urgent, every issues that happen during my absence need immediate attention and its my attention…………
I were breaking down at TMC after my scan and yet I have to pack my feelings to answer phone calls after phone calls. HB ask me how on earth are you going on Maternity Leave like this?
I no longer able to take on so much stress, I have a life to live normally, I aint no Superwoman, if earning lesser make me happier than it’s a clear choice.
Hopefully when I rtn to office tml, I dont see a big mess waiting for me. Losing my cool and breaking down during my pregnancy is the last thing I ever want to do.
Im already on they road of recovery. HB pass the flu bug to me and I was on MC for 2 days.
After learning my last lesson and hearing the news abt a preggy who pass away after she refuse medicine despite contracting H1N1. I do not want to drag my flu for another 2 weeks and cough till I spot again. This time round I duly took the flu medicine and started to feel better on Friday. I chose to stay home as I do not want to contract any other viruses esp H1N1 from others when my immune is down to zero.
Im feeling so much better now and Im glad tt I make the right choice. To all the MTB out there, pls kindly see a doctor when u are unwell and tk the medication prescribe for you. Pls dont try to be wonder woman and get urself into more trouble. If u r not fit how would u be able to continue nurture the little one in your womb.
I was on MSN with a few friends and cousin last night, were on a topic abt insensitive comments.
After logging off, I head for my bed but cant get to slp after tossing and turning. I thought it was becos of the afternoon nap I took. Apparently I was wrong…….
I told HB I couldnt slp, he turn off the computer and started chatting with me. I was telling him I heard something very hurtful in office on Friday. He told me not to tk it to heart and dont bother abt it too much. After talking for a while I was hungry and went to have a bowl of noodles, thought I would be able to slp well after a full stomach………. I did slp for a while but woke up after dreaming of my aunt very badly injured face when she got into an accident abt 14 yrs ago………
I woke up at 7plus in the morning as I didnt went into deep slp. This morning I went to market with a half dead soul, and ask myself what did I do these to myself? Tt someone who said tt probably had a good slp last night, why did I punish myself for someone insensitive comment? 不开心还真的是知己找的.
Anyway a mother ever commented, “aiyo worse than a pregnant woman”, right at my face……………. Anyway tt sentence I heard on Friday was 100 times worse than this comment. Maybe its wasnt so much of insensitive comment but a kind of discrimination????
We are all out to make a living only, why make things difficult for each other?
Today I met a kind soul on the train, I boarded the train from Outram as usual, initially I were standing close to the door after reaching Redhill I manage to move in and stand in front of the 2 priority seat. If we do have pple who are kind enough to give up their seats to me, there will be the opposite.
A lady was sitting on the first P.seat while the man on the second. They look like they are in their 30s and are most probably office executives. They simply turn a blind eye. When they saw me and I were hugging my tummy. After a while this Chinese man (in the 40s) who were standing beside me saw tt no one offer the seats to me. He asked me which stop am I getting down and I told him BB station. To my shock, he went to ask the man sitting on the 2nd p.seat to give up his seat for me as Im going to have a long journey.
The woman on the 1st p.seat get up after this kind soul asked for the seat, well guessed she felt embarrassed. I Thank the Man who asked the seat for me and also the woman who “gave” up the seat. This gentleman even thanks the woman and the man who in the end nvr gave up the seat for me. Oh well I guess we just have to say it out of formality sake though we know they didnt wanted to give up their seats in the first place. When the gentleman say 10q to the man, he still have the cheek to say, “np I didnt saw her”. >.<”" I were standing right in front of him and yet he still can say “I didnt saw her”. Well at least if he say “I didnt know she is pregnant” was a better excuse than “I didnt saw her”. Well after all the hoo ha, he decided tt he should slp and save himself from more embarrassing stare.
I really felt grateful to this gentleman who bothers to ask for seats for pple like us. There are pple who give up seats but there are also a lot of ugly pple who doesnt or probably think that they dont need. They either feign slping, meddling with hp, books, newspaper or simply ignore u. I really do not know how to comment abt Singapore’s graciousness, some pple say becos its very tiring after 1 whole day of work, some pple work late the day before hence they are very tired so they need the seats. We pregnant woman suffer from extreme fatigue, wake up as usual in the morning and goes to work like everyone else, on top of the daily tiredness, we are exhausted becos we have certain hormones in us tt make us feel very tired. So do we need the seats?
I hope those pple who dont give up seats for pple who more in need, apply the same standard back to themselves and do not feel upset when no one gives up the seat to you when you are old or pregnant. Dont even complain no one give up the seats to your wife or urself becos you felt tt it was right tt there is no need to give up seats to them. Good luck to all these pple. 人在做天在看.
I believe in Karma, what goes ard comes ard.
1. I still puke everyday till Wk14 and its not funny at all. I still puke abt 2 to 3 times a week, even Im in WK 18. I have already resign my fate to MS.
2. Appetite is better @ WK15, I can eat more but I have to eat real damn slow if not whatever went in will be contributed to the toilet bowl later.
3. Felt BB kicking @ WK14.5, and its getting stronger day by day.
4. Pimples outbreak is getting from bad to worse. I nvr grew 1 single pimple during my puberty stage only occasionally my AV is ard the corner but its only tt pathetic few small pimples. The pimples started in 1st trimester and it pop more in my early 2nd trimester and its big swollen ones. But this week there is no new pimples popping out and I hope it will subside from here.
5. Ear block is slightly better. If u happen to be calling me on the street and I didnt hear u, pls forgive me cos at times I cant even hear someone talking to me who is just a few steps away. This apply esp for guys with very low tone voice, there was once my boss were talking to me, suddenly I hear him speaking alien language couldnt catch a single thing he said. I only caught what he say after he repeated himself slowly.
6. I have outgrown some of my clothing and starting to wear maternity clothing.
7. Im having red little polka dots on my face, its call Petechial Rash. Read more here.
8. I had my first Braxton Hicks contraction on 09/09 and I dont like the feeling.
The very tired face filled with little red polka dots. Pple say if u r carrying a boy, u will look very bad, How True!!!
My Sensei recommended me this CD, it helps in building a positive mindset during pregnancy. If you are interested pls let me know.
终于一切都过去了, 这几年的是与非就让他随风而去. 前面的路还很长, 我们会陪你一起走. 往后的日子一定要更开心, 活得更充实.
我无法帮你预言委曲求全有没有用
可是我多么不舍朋友爱得那么苦痛
爱可以不问对错至少要喜悦感动
如果他总为别人撑伞你何苦非为他等在雨中
泡咖啡让你暖手想挡挡你心口里的风
你却想上街走走吹吹冷风会清醒得多
你说你不怕分手只有点遗憾难过
情人节就要来了剩自己一个
其实爱对了人情人节每天都过
分手快乐祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活得有笑容
分手快乐祝你快乐
你可以找到更好的
不想过冬厌倦沉重
就飞去热带的岛屿游泳
分手快乐请你快乐
挥别错的才能和对的相逢
离开旧爱像坐慢车
看透彻了心就会是晴朗的
没人能把谁的幸福没收
你发誓你会活的有笑容
你自信时候真的美多了
I really need to say 10q to many pple who really show care and concern during my pregnancy. No matter is the things they say or do, really touch my heart.
HB: He has been giving his ultimate support and care from the day we knew abt the pregnancy. He really tk good care of everything and let me have a piece of mind when Im resting. During the first trimester, the fatigue was really bad, basically I have to struggle to wake up everyday to get to work, by the time Im home, Im completely drop dead. At times I can slp as early as 8pm, tt leave him to do everything in the house. He get late for work becos he need to get breakfast for me everyday, and at time suffer nonsense from me.
Cousin Thomas: After HB announce the news to him, he is really happy for us. He started telling HB what to do and how to take care of me. He share his knowledge as a father with him and he is genuinely concern abt us. There was once HB rcv his sms, reminding HB not to let me do exercise as first 3 mths bb still not stable.
Vendor: He was one of those who really surprise me, he called me up to congratulate me and started sharing a lot of advices with me. His knowledge really surprise me and I must say his wife is also one of the luckiest woman on earth. I really saw a caring man which is totally different from what I know abt him previously, playful and cheeky. During one of my Saturday’s duty, he rang me up and ask why am I sending email at 1:10pm, so I told him Im leaving after sending u the last email, in a concern manner he ask me to quickly go back and rest. Another time, I called him up to check on some operation at 6:15pm, he told me vsl delayed till next week, matter keep it to next week then discuss and ask me to quickly to go back home and 养胎. Sometimes such kind act in the office make me feel a lot better at work.
Superior: I was so worried to tell him abt my pregnant news, but things turn out to be much better than I expect. Due to my MS, I were constantly late for work. He told me he perfectly understand my situation and told me tt MS can really be bad at times. I guess company support to make a great difference for any preggy woman.
Colleagues: I must say this 2 colleagues who are young and single are really understanding to me. One of them will accompany me to taobao food for everyone, as she knows I cant carry heavy stuff. She will be the one volunteering to go taobao with me and nvr have a second word abt carrying all the lunch back. The other one actually, help me do filling as she can really see that Im really busy with my work. At least I have 1 stack of files less to trouble, I have been working on stacks of file since the hooha in the office happened. It took me 2 weeks to clear the backlog files and emails. She willingly exchange her Saturday’s duty with me as she knows I need to go for antenatal check up. Though young and single, both of them have great knowledge abt pregnancy too.
Friends and Family: Those who are really encouraging abt my pregnancy, those who really give good piece of advice, those who genuinely share our joy. Thank you very much, cos you guys make my pregnancy process a cheerful one.
在家靠家人出外真的要靠朋友. 真的谢谢大家.
